Dating Anniversary Revelations

Three years ago, on the October 25th Tim and I started dating. I just realized this yesterday.... and then I had a mental meltdown. This life is so different from three years ago. Who is this housewife? What happened to the young, energized, adventurous Candi? Is that what happens when you get married, you get old?
I'm 22! That's crazy young, and right now I'm cleaning the living room, washing dishes, and washing the clothes all while watching "Everybody Loves Raymond". I might as well put on a apron and some pearls and call it a day!

As you know, I'm only joking. Really my mental meltdown wasn't because I'm old. In all seriousness I was being a grouch because I was the one cleaning the house and not Tim. And to top that off I couldn't find anything to wear. (I know, somebody call the waaaabulance)
Whats sad is that I took it off on Tim. I called to yell at him periodically during the day, like a good wife would do. You know those arguments that he can never win. *sigh* My favorite kind.

Go figure that my devotion would be on taming your tongue. After much refusal to admit my wrong, I finally called Tim to apologize. I think that's one of my hardest lessons. I always speak whatever comes to my mind. But one day I'm going to be held accountable for all those things I've said. Ever since yesterday I've been constantly quoting Psalm 19:14 in hope that the Lord will show me when to speak, and when to be quiet.

"May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Oh Lord." Psalm 19:14

Rainy Days

I must be a romantic. I love to read, paint, write, bake, and snuggle on rainy days. Its so relaxing to the soul. I also like to reflect on my life. And I just want to say...sorry whoever is reading this because I have the best life anyone could ask for!

My parents are amazing. I am going to miss them so much when they leave. You would think I wouldn't be able to stand them after living with them the past several months. Truth is, I love being at this stage. Because my parents are like friends and mentors. I feel like I finally respect who they are (of course there are the occational arguments) but I finally get to know them as people and not just parents. They are really fun and lively people, you'd think they were 20 all over again! Its going to be really hard not having them here for four years. Thank the Lord for technology!

I also love to think of my husband. Last night he looked at me and basically told me that he was proud of who I am. Satan began attacking our marriage through our dreams. Putting temptations that don't belong in our hearts. Tim and I come together as a team and fight with prayer every night before we sleep. I love having a husband who not only cares about me, but my dreams! We have not had a "nightmare" since. Isn't the Lord amazing? I am at awe that when I ask to be rescued the Lord answers my call! What is a marriage without Jesus?!!? How can it survive?!!?

"If God is for us, who can be against us?" Romans 8:31

Search me and Know me

One of the good things about having so much down time, is that you have plenty of time to read. I love reading. Especially on a day like today. Rainy, chilly, snuggled up in a blanket, with a cup of hot chocolate!

I've been reading a devotional book. It speaks very simply, but it speaks allot of truth. The book shows you how to uncover your sins. I've been praying and letting God search my heart. The thing is, is that I've noticed so much sin. I never realized it was so big. Its in everything I do. So what do I do with this knowledge?!?! Now that I know what my sins are, I see them everywhere. I sin more now, then I did before I knew. I know this isn't true. Its just that I'm recognizing the sins I've been doing all along.

I heard this great quote.
"For every time you think of yourself, think three times of Christ"

The more I look into myself and my own flaws, I forget what Christ came for. Once I start thinking about the price He paid for me, then I realize what a sinner He came to save. I have to stop thinking about my failure, and start looking towards the love of Christ.