Goodbyes

I thought I was over with goodbyes, isn't that why I came to America?

Actually I always knew deep down that I would never be over with goodbyes. First of all, its embedded in my life. There is no escaping it. Second of all, I'm choosing a lifestyle FULL of goodbyes. Third of all, this means a good amount of my friends will be choosing the same lifestyle.

Its funny, Tim never really had to say goodbye. I'm sure this is hitting him like a ton of bricks. He better get used to it!

I hated (and I mean HATED) goodbyes growing up. I felt trapped in a room of forever goodbyes. Mom and dad choose the lifestyle, not me. Why did I have to take part in the ritual? I guess as a pre-teen everything seems exagerated. There was even a time in my life when I refused to make friends, just because I already knew we would leave them. (sucky life, I know!) I eventually grew up. I realized that I would have the most boring life sitting alone in my room.
I also realized that I wanted life full of goodbyes. New and more adventures.

Now I find myself lucky. I've experienced so much. I have friends all over the world. You know what, I wouldn't give up goodbyes for anything. With every goodbye, theres another hello.

Things I Love!

Here is a list of the things that make my heart happy during the summertime.

1. Cupcakes. Tiny little precious cakes, and so yummy!

2. Puppies. Not sure what this has to do with summer, but who doesn't like puppies year round!

3. Fresh Flowers. Preferably bright colors!

4. Summer dresses. mmm sunshine!

5. Swimming. Really, anything to do with water.

Summertime and the livin is easy!!!

Growing up

How can you really be the best you can be? Every time you think you've made it...someone comes along to show you how much you really haven't.

I guess I'll never be the wife I want to be. I mean, I have some good qualities. I'm encouraging, loving, adventurous, and of course super funny. HA. But I'm definitely not the servant I wish to be. My wonderful father decided to point this out to me. Twice.

I must have a princess persona. Tim was born a servant. It comes so naturally to him. Growing up my family always called me "Queen of the Universe" because it always had to be my way. I guess I carried that over into marriage. I thought I grew out of it, and maybe in some ways I have. I'm definitely not the same person I was when I was young. But to hear my dad say something like that again, made my heart stop for a second.
Am I not helping enough?
Should I do more?
Will Tim get tired of me?
Am I a good wife?

I hate being looked at the same way I was back then. I sure hope I've grown since then. I'm trying my hardest to be the best wife I can be. I know my dad says things he doesn't mean, but for some reason it always gets to me. Maybe its hard for parents to see you as anything different than what you were when you were young.

I guess the only person who really matters is my husband. No matter what, I should always strive to be a better person than the day before. You shouldn't ignore the things people say about you, sometimes they might be true. You can learn and grow from it.

Mars and Venus

You've heard it said, guys and girls are different. Well duh. But it is so true. Down to every little detail. I could probably make a 30 page list of all the differences between Tim and I. Of course, isn't that what makes a great marriage? Who wants to live with themselves, how incredibly boring!

Example: In the area of love. I need constant surprises. Not big things, but you know...those little moments that you know he loves you because he did something extraordinary. Like when he washes the dishes randomly. Or stares at you in the morning after getting dressed and says "Wow you look so pretty." Random flowers for no reason, a surprise kiss.

Its hard to explain this to him. Its not that I like one specific gesture, its that I like all of them when done unexpectedly. Men are so much more easy to please. If Tim and I went to dinner and a movie every night, he would be so in love. Haha. Hes content just being with me.

This probably comes from our backgrounds as well. My family lives for adventure. We never stop moving, exploring, and meeting new people. Tim's family are the all around American family. They all live right next to each other, and have get togethers with huge cookouts. I love both of our families, and I hope we have a little of each in us. (who can pass up a good cookout??)

A lady from work today was talking about her upcoming anniversary. 40 years. She was so excited when talking about her husband. She gave me advise on love and marriage. I was contemplating all this today. Its funny how much you learn about a person the more you are with them. I'm still learning about him, and hes learning about me. I wonder how long we will be learning? 40 years? I hope so :-)

Theres Only One Word for This

I love that chocolate commercial. The song is too cute.

To my husband:
You are my prince charming. I always feel safe when I'm in your arms and you have always treated me like a princess. I have felt more beautiful in this last year, than I have in my entire life. You are everything a girl ever would want in a husband, and I can't believe that I am the girl you chose. You are responsible, handsome, strong, Godly, creative, romantic, funny, caring, and you have the biggest servants heart I have ever seen. What more could I have asked for?? This past year was the most exciting, adventurous and romantic times of my life! People always say the first year is the hardest. Baby, if that was the hardest, we got it made!!!
Happy Anniversary Darling.


Theres only one word for this........its bliss. :-)