Candi's blog

I decided to make my own blog. I wanted a girlie one. Tim will probably get jealous and wanna make his own blog, haha. I write more than he does anyway.

I am currently at work. Usually the phone rings off the hook or I have a million things to get done, but right now I'm just sitting. Waiting for someone to call.

So I've been reading this other lady's blog. Its about love, dating, and all that jazz...only she has a a rare disablity disease. Its incredibly sad, but very insightful. I can't help but think, all girls have felt this way at one point. Like we have some sort of a disease that scares away men.
(Ok obviously I'm married, but I wasn't always married. I do speak with experience. Not to mention, I am really young, and most of my friends are still single.)

Seriously though girls, haven't you thought...
"I'm not pretty enough."
"I'm not fun enough."
"If only I could...(fill in the blank)"

Although I love the way this woman writes, I feel like she thinks shes the only one out there. No one else is having these dating problems, and no one else feels these insecurities.

Its funny, I've never been one of those "boy crazy girls". Actually the other day, my best friend and I went to see the Proposal. We ran into some 15 year old girls from my friends church. They were giggling and sneaking around to see these 15 year old boys out in the parking lot. I think those girls may have watched thirty minutes of the movie.
When we got in the car, my friend and I began talking about when we were 15. (seven to eight years ago! AHH!) I remember all my friends being that way. I would follow along, but I always thought it was so silly. I was always a one guy kind of girl. I didn't even have my first real boyfriend until my senior year of highschool.

All that being said, its sad the amount of time we are thinking about finding the one. Contemplating how and when it might happen. Making sure you look the right way, you act the right way. Oh you know, that way your suppose to act to get a guy. *sarcasm*

Yes, acting a certain way and looking a certain way, can defintely get you a guy. The guy you want? um not really. If you don't put on an act at all, then you are showing yourself. Whoever likes who you really are, is the guy who is gonna stick around.

I know this doesn't happen the same for everyone. But it happened to me that way. I was loving being single. I was loving life.
Then, he found me.

It seemed reverse. He was the one trying to get my attention. He did. I started thinking, this isn't reverse at all. This is right. I feel beautiful and adored by this man. He was searching for me, and I loved every bit of it. (and still do!)

That is how God loves us. He pursues us and He loves us.

I know its hard. I've been there. I wasn't always loving single life, I still had dreams of love and the future. We need to stop trying to make it happen, and know that one day....its gonna happen. And its gonna be amazing.